If you start to lose your way, your motivation, and you begin to question yourself, your work, your being -- what brings you back? What do you do to remember? I ask because recently, I began to question and began to doubt. I felt the questioning of "what am I doing" and "why am I doing this" begin to creep back in. And when I feel these doubts, I tend to hear these thoughts in the words that come out of other people's mouths, even if that's not what they are really saying. I project onto others my story, my fear, my doubt. And then it all seems to grow 10 fold. So what do I do?
Well, it's happened before just as it happened this time and this is what happens...I hit a bit of a breaking point, and then I turn to people I love and trust for a bit of guidance, for a bit of reassurance. For me, those people are often my parents. Not only are they wise and thoughtful, they are also a constant source of love, strength and inspiration. They have experienced so much in their lives, and with that experience comes so much wisdom. And they know me, they don't judge me, they love me for who I am. And they are good at knocking some sense back into me. They remind me that it's not the other people saying these things, but my own self doubt and fear that I am letting get in the way. They remind me to dig deeper, to remember my purpose, to remember why it is I chose to do it this way. Not because I was forced to, or that I needed to, but that it was my CHOICE, and that I have a reason why. They remind me that I am strong, that I have a reason, and that I have to be brave with that knowledge and confident in my ability to carry out my purpose. They remind me to take a breath, to look around me, and above all, to be grateful for everything that is in my life. To be grateful that I have these choices to make in the first place. To be grateful for the love that I am surrounded by every day. And to be grateful for the chance to do what I am doing.
My parents...they are amazing human beings. They remind me what it means to love, to give, and to be strong. They remind me to thank God everyday for everything, and I am incredibly grateful to have them in my life. I am incredibly grateful that my children get to spend time with them, to grow with their love, and to learn from their wisdom.
Cherish the people in your life that bring you strength, that support you, that love you for who you are. It's worth it to say thank you, and I love you. It's worth it to tell them that you are so grateful for their support. I wouldn't be half the person that I am trying to be without my parents. Thank you Mom and Dad, I love you.